Tantalizing Tuesday Tease: My way

My Way

Regrets I've had a few.

Fuck, Frank, that's one hell of an understatement. I've had a lot more than a few

Taking another mouthful of the burning liquid from the bottle I shivered, as it set fire to my throat on the way down.

Sitting there with the only friend I had in the world, a bottle of Jack Daniels, I wondered why the fuck I was still here. Then realized it was probably because if I tried to end it I'd fuck that up just like I'd fucked up everything else I'd ever tried.

Another mouthful and the haunting words of Frank Sinatra filled my mind again.

Too few to mention.

Yeah right Frank I'd had that fucking many I had lost fucking count. The self-harming, the failed marriages, in fact my failure at fucking everything and anything. Still none of it mattered any more, not now, now I could, and would, do anything I wanted.

The trouble was though all I wanted to do was empty this bottle and then start another, if I was still capable.

©JSMorbius

Tantalizing Tuesday Tease: My way

It's tease time again and sometimes you just don't need 200 words.

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Thank you.

My Way

Regrets I've had a few.

Fuck Frank that's one hell of an understatement, I've had a lot more than a few

Taking another mouthful of the burning liquid from the bottle I shivered, as it set fire to my throat on the way down.

Sitting there with the only friend I had in the world, a bottle of Jack Daniels, I wondered why the fuck I was still here. Then realized it was probably because if I tried to end it I'd fuck that up just like I'd fucked up everything else I'd ever tried.

Another mouthful and the haunting words of Frank Sinatra filled my mind again.

Too few to mention.

Yeah right Frank I'd had that fucking many I had lost fucking count. The self-harming, the failed marriages, in fact my failure at fucking everything and anything. Still none of it mattered any more, not now, now I could, and would, do anything I wanted.

The trouble was though all I wanted to do was empty this bottle and then start another, if I was still awake.

©JSMorbius

The battle ends NOW

Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity that can affect a person's thoughts, behavior, feelings and sense of well-being.

[1] Depressed people can feel sad, anxious, empty, hopeless, worried, helpless, worthless, guilty, irritable, hurt, or restless [disambiguation needed]. They may lose interest in activities that once were pleasurable, experience loss of appetite or overeating, have problems concentrating, remembering details, or making decisions, and may contemplate, attempt, or commit suicide. Insomnia, excessive sleeping, fatigue, loss of energy, or aches, pains, or digestive problems may also be present.

[2] Depressed mood is not always a psychiatric disorder. It may also be a normal reaction to certain life events, a symptom of some medical conditions, or a side effect of some drugs or medical treatments. Depressed mood is also a primary or associated feature of certain psychiatric syndromes such as clinical depression.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depression_(mood)

For too long have been fighting and the time has come to, somehow, put an end to this battle. Not sure how I'm going to do it, after all it's been an ongoing problem ever since I was a teenager but all I know is that I am going to do it, I have to.

I WILL WIN